I woke up this morning, but that is all it took.

The lump in the throat, twisting of the stomach, slightly feeling of dizziness, thoughts emotions flashing through my mind, past, present, the future, whizzing around and curling up in the chest, travelling through the stomach and getting stuck in the lump in the throat.

I woke up this morning, but that is all it took.

 

— Jeeda

Half your deen

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If marriage is half your deen (faith) then that only means that the institution of marriage is so important in Islam but only if the institution is respected, both parties serve their purpose within the marriage and both are in it wholeheartedly to acquire the reward of completing half your deen.  With that being said, this ...

Ever wonder what it’s like to be loved?

Someone to declare it so publicly that you are their person?

To be embraced so tight like you’re the only one?

Feel a comfort so perfect that you feel whole?

No?

I crouch down next to a large throne in my thoughts and imagine a embrace so out-wordly that I pray…one day…one day…my creator…one day.

-Jeeda

Anxiety

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I travel in my mind like a tourist searching, searching for answers to questions. It loves creating, creating a myriad of situations that leads to brink of anxiety, an anxiety that make me question my very existence in this dunya, a dunya that I call home but makes me feel so strange. ⁃ A stranger amongst familiar searching for peace ...

Sigh

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A sigh of helplessness Amongst the signs of oppression Vs A sigh of relief Amongst the signs of freedom It almost feels selfish I am the latter, when people out there simply appreciate the feeling that they matter.  Jeeda Joseph

This Backpack…

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After travelling out to Aida Camp in Bethlehem, West Bank. We distributed backpacks to the children who were about to start school after Eid-ul-Adha. The way they hugged the backpacks it made me write the following... This backpack is the world It holds within hope A hope of change A flicker of freedom This backpack is a dream Filled with education A ...

I am a traveller…

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I am a traveller... A ghuraba (stranger) in a world of souls. An isolated being amongst many who rove. I am a traveller... A living soul journeying through trials & tests. Will I succeed or will I transgress? I am a traveller Not only in this world but within my own soul. This body, a vessel, a gift, an amanah (trust). Will I ...

Connect

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Connect; every time you stand up for salah - connect... Find the connection deep in your soul you're standing in front of your creator your lord - connect... Connect; talk from the heart talk, ask, ask for what you desire the most - connect... Find the inner peace, find the inner beauty, the spiritual being - connect... Connect. Connect. ...

Elegant Woman…

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Elegant Woman Once beautifully graced our family... This elegant woman had no limits, Lack of academic education but a well beyond what the norm saw fit. This elegant woman took on hardship with ease, Bringing down hardship so graciously to its knees. This elegant woman was strong in life, Stronger than most people, taking on more than most can even comprehend let ...

Last year…

By Sunday, December 25, 2016 0 No tags Permalink 0

Last year this time things were so difficult but you were still here and things were the perfect kind of different. Last year this time I thought things would be fine, we would make it to today but the decree was divine. Last year this time we had so many plans, but little did we know our ...